I have no idea what I want to do when I grow up...
Rephrase that.
I have no idea, what I'll be doing.
I know some basic ideas that I would looove to have, oh say 5 years from now.
But nothing concrete. Nothing that couldn't changed, sway, or be tweeked.
Here's a list of things I know:
1)I love people, and hearing their stories and experiencing their lives.
My favorite way to learn is from the stories my dad has told me growing up.
From the stories he'd tell me of his father, and family on long rides home.
How my parents met, and how he knew right away, he couldn't let my mom get by.
Or his mother telling us stories of her life, raising 5 kids by herself for 25+ years.
The reason I want to know a person's story, is so I can know them, understand them.
Its like I get to relive a small part of their life, next to them, just for a moment.
It's selfish of me to be so involved in myself, and become deaf to the lives and stories around me.
2)I want to help...in any way I can, anywhere.
We have a calling to smear His love across the oceans, around the world.
I want to be across those oceans, helping the helpless, giving hope to the hopeless. So many of these kids have no family. No parents...no one. And then there's me, with two perfectly good ones, a sister and brother who love me to death, and completely surrounded my friends...I have to do something...But its uncertainty that cripples me. Have faith, and let his light shine through my shortcomings...it shouldn't be that hard.
3)I want to love...
"Break my heart for what breaks Yours, everything I am for Your Kingdom come"
Everything I do, with every part of me, I want to love. Love my work, my friends, my family, and God. I want to love the things I hate, and see my God in them...so I don't hate them anymore. Unless ya know...Im supposed to hate those things. haha
I want to be passionate and exhausted with my life, but in an exciting, exhilarating way...
Who knows if any of this makes sense...
Just some thoughts I've been having.
The list could go on much longer...but not for now.
I honestly don't know where God's going to lead me these next years.
I just hope Im willing and my heart is ready to hear what this big guy in the sky has to say.
